What I'll Miss

So, I had this big post all written out (in my mind) about how our careers seem to sum up "who we are" in the eyes of our peers these days, but I don't feel like writing about that anymore.

All I can think about right now is how much I'm going to miss my friend when I move to California at the end of next month. Despite all the nasty fights - big and small - that we've had over the years, she's been one of my best friends for so long... It's going to hurt when we can't hang out on a regular basis anymore, especially since we're roommates right now. We see each other just about every day. Leaving is going to be like going "cold turkey" on our hanging-out time.

And that SUCKS MAJOR ASS.

I mean, when I'm in San Diego, who is going to join me in singing along (at full volume) with Sonata Arctica guitar solos?

Who is going to knit with me while we watch Dexter?

Who is going to get all geeky and squeal-y and fangirly with me about our Novel-characters?

Who is going to go to coffee shops and brainstorm/write with me?

I know this isn't much of an entry, but it really is all I can think about at the moment. It's going to be hard not to be sad the whole last month I'm here, knowing that I won't be able to spend time with my friend when I'm in California. It also makes me discouraged about making new friends, because I know that no other friend could ever compare. This is that once-in-a-lifetime friendship. You know, the kind that doesn't come along every day. The kind that should be cherished within an inch of its life? It's that kind.

Yeah.

Also, I am suuuper close to my older sister. We try to hang out at least once a week. We attend plays, concerts, movies, museum exhibits and the like together all the time. And we have fun just hanging out, playing Scrabble and talking. Now I'll never see her. That's really hard too. She and I have been having trouble not crying about it every time we see each other.

This is hard.

I'll stop being sappy for now. Sorry. I just needed to get that off of my chest.

San Diego is going to be a lonely place.